May 11, 2008

My Mother, My Self

People—particularly those who know my mom—always tell me that I look like her. That I have her—ahem—grace. Only that she is more beautiful. And more sociable. And more this and more that.

Growing up, I used to really resent the comparison. Especially during those neurotic years when I thought my Mom was always after my neck. When I thought she wanted me to be her clone. How I used to really hate it when she’d walk into my room to tell me that this wasn’t the way a “lady’s” room should look like. There may have been a lot of times when I told myself that I wouldn’t be like her.

But the years away from home made me look at things from a different perspective I learned to take the comparison for what it was: a compliment. I began to see my mom as a woman of strength, a woman of faith. So when I find myself obsessing over the bathroom tiles and the creased bedsheets, I really, really know that I am my mother's daughter.

Now that I can stake a claim on motherhood, I find myself wishing that I am more like her: patient, well put together, competitive. A supermom who can juggle home, work and play and still find time for a lot more. More than anything, I wish I have her faith. I look at my daughter—whom friends refer to as my mini me—and I realize that motherhood is a matter of faith. It is a matter of giving a child an anchor from where she may draw strength and freedom so that she may soar.

Happy Mother’s Day, Mommy! And although I didn’t get your hair (and got your hips instead, ha ha), I thank you for giving me the two things I treasure most: roots and wings.


Anonymous said...

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY ANNA its me zet take care of gianna ang GLEN very much OK u all

chateau a.k.a. imom said...

This is a beautiful tribute to your mommy. I'm sure she is very proud of you.

Happy Mother's Day, Anna, and Anna's Mom!

ScroochChronicles said...

Happy Mother's Day!!

One day, Gianna will write something similar for you :)

Rudy said...

A bit late but, a Happy Mother's day to you anyway... :-)